[FINAL MEMORY]
Dec. 14th, 2011 09:48 pm* Realizing Jon is alive. Finally taking flight. "Dear Timi, you may."
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+ Overcoming her fear of heights and the sky for good.
+ . . . ♥
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+ Overcoming her fear of heights and the sky for good.
+ . . . ♥
[MEMORY # 26]
Dec. 10th, 2011 11:47 pm* The Black Grandfather chucking Carving Knife in the river. (significant neutral, shareable)
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+ I'M GLAD NO ONE DIED.
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+ I'M GLAD NO ONE DIED.
[MEMORY # 25]
Dec. 7th, 2011 09:59 pm* "This is a Griffin wind. I wonder when--" (trivial neutral)
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+ Doesn't imply that Griffins have wind magic so much as some instinctive knowledge of seasonal/weather patterns, which Lark gains from this memory.
+ MOMENT OF IMPENDING CHOICE MIDBOOK ha ha ha how well-timed. Timi's mood in this memory is the same mood Lark's starting to get into in Aather. Where does she go when she's done here? Who does she choose to stay with? Oh no, oh no.
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+ Doesn't imply that Griffins have wind magic so much as some instinctive knowledge of seasonal/weather patterns, which Lark gains from this memory.
+ MOMENT OF IMPENDING CHOICE MIDBOOK ha ha ha how well-timed. Timi's mood in this memory is the same mood Lark's starting to get into in Aather. Where does she go when she's done here? Who does she choose to stay with? Oh no, oh no.
[MEMORY # 24]
Dec. 4th, 2011 10:40 pm* The Black Grandfather's speech; being abandoned by the Griffin flock. (significant negative, shareable)
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+ Well that sucked but it was also kind of her fault and she turned out okay!!
+ A-and another note: Zack's heart . . . jolted Lark into being able to fly early . . . she is still terrified of it but not so terrified she won't do it if she needs to anymore. HILARITY.
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+ Well that sucked but it was also kind of her fault and she turned out okay!!
+ A-and another note: Zack's heart . . . jolted Lark into being able to fly early . . . she is still terrified of it but not so terrified she won't do it if she needs to anymore. HILARITY.
[MEMORY # 23]
Nov. 30th, 2011 11:08 pm* Blundering into the Palace kitchens. Carving Knife. Being told Jon is dead. (significant negative, shareable)
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+ 8|
+ 8|!!!
+ While this memory is mitigated by later ones (Jon Dumpling wasn't really dead!) she'll still be pretty sad for a while after taking it.
+ Extreme aversion to being tied up or held down.
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+ 8|
+ 8|!!!
+ While this memory is mitigated by later ones (Jon Dumpling wasn't really dead!) she'll still be pretty sad for a while after taking it.
+ Extreme aversion to being tied up or held down.
[MEMORIES # 21, 22; SKILL # 5]
Nov. 19th, 2011 10:20 pm* The tiny apple dumpling. Setting out for the Palace to help Jon. (significant neutral, shareable)
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+ IF A THING MUST BE DONE GET OUT AND DO IT HOWEVER YOU CAN :|b
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* Falling out of the nest when very young. Being retrieved by the Black Grandfather. (significant negative, shareable)
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+ Oh that's why I can't fly :( Mystery solved...
+ Bodylanguage-wise, she already goes around often with her wings as flat against her back as she can make them a lot; this will become a lot more pronounced.
+ Also no more of her (admittedly already rare) attempts to practice flying.
+ A definite problem with heights -- she climbs trees and cabins just fine, but something like the cliff is just terrifying.
+ Pretty flat avoidance of the topic: if anyone brings up her wings and if she can fly or not, expect to be gently rebuffed.
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* Dusting and cleaning.
And then Tiger's Eye was never dirty again.
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+ IF A THING MUST BE DONE GET OUT AND DO IT HOWEVER YOU CAN :|b
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* Falling out of the nest when very young. Being retrieved by the Black Grandfather. (significant negative, shareable)
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+ Oh that's why I can't fly :( Mystery solved...
+ Bodylanguage-wise, she already goes around often with her wings as flat against her back as she can make them a lot; this will become a lot more pronounced.
+ Also no more of her (admittedly already rare) attempts to practice flying.
+ A definite problem with heights -- she climbs trees and cabins just fine, but something like the cliff is just terrifying.
+ Pretty flat avoidance of the topic: if anyone brings up her wings and if she can fly or not, expect to be gently rebuffed.
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* Dusting and cleaning.
And then Tiger's Eye was never dirty again.
[MEMORY # 20]
Oct. 29th, 2011 09:46 pm* Orphaned. (significant negative, shareable)
This is just a memory of being in the Griffin nest as a baby! Runt of the litter. Knowledge that she didn't have anyone in the flock to look to -- except perhaps the Black Grandfather -- because both of her parents were dead.
+ 100 familyfamilyfamilybawwwfamily.
+ A few days of clinginess to Tiger's Eye and her favorite knights, following them around and stalking them extensively and sleeping in their beds and generally being kind of a nuisance, rather than doing her own thing like she usually does.
This is just a memory of being in the Griffin nest as a baby! Runt of the litter. Knowledge that she didn't have anyone in the flock to look to -- except perhaps the Black Grandfather -- because both of her parents were dead.
+ 100 familyfamilyfamilybawwwfamily.
+ A few days of clinginess to Tiger's Eye and her favorite knights, following them around and stalking them extensively and sleeping in their beds and generally being kind of a nuisance, rather than doing her own thing like she usually does.
[MEMORIES # 16, 17, 18, 19]
Sep. 26th, 2011 11:21 pm* The Griffin flock returns. Altercation between Carving Knife, Jon, and the Queen. (significant neutral, shareable)
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* The Dragon offering proof to the Queen. (significant positive)
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* Watching the Emperor arrive. Sneezing fit. Conversing with the Imperial Dragon. (significant neutral, shareable)
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* "Come and see us sometimes!" (significant positive, shareable)
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+ These might have had different effects if they were taken spread out as was originally intended, but she took all four in succession (and in worst memory -> best memory order, too), so what happened is A LOT OF MOOD WHIPLASH and A LOT OF HOLES IN HER STORY FILLED IN.
+ The two sig neutrals are actually times when her situation was improving; meeting the Imperial Dragon was a good thing, and so was finding that Jon was alive! What makes them so awful is how crippled and passive she was during both--she sees now that being too terrified to speak up for herself led to the bad situation going on and on.
+ To reinforce that, the two sig positives are someone speaking for her, and the excellent results of finally standing up for herself. In the first the Queen stopped believing lies, and in the second she was allowed to choose where she wanted to live. LESSON LEARNED.
+ Timi will be a lot less afraid to speak her mind, and while forcing the issue was a brutal way to tackle it, the '4 x fear of memories' effect from her heartgame is about 75% repaired. She will still be fidgety and balky about it, but it won't paralyze her anymore.
+ She is now aware that ... well, there are very few gaps in her memory left! So she'll probably be a little more low-key and sad, now, because she's facing up to the possibility that she might go home soon.
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* The Dragon offering proof to the Queen. (significant positive)
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* Watching the Emperor arrive. Sneezing fit. Conversing with the Imperial Dragon. (significant neutral, shareable)
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* "Come and see us sometimes!" (significant positive, shareable)
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+ These might have had different effects if they were taken spread out as was originally intended, but she took all four in succession (and in worst memory -> best memory order, too), so what happened is A LOT OF MOOD WHIPLASH and A LOT OF HOLES IN HER STORY FILLED IN.
+ The two sig neutrals are actually times when her situation was improving; meeting the Imperial Dragon was a good thing, and so was finding that Jon was alive! What makes them so awful is how crippled and passive she was during both--she sees now that being too terrified to speak up for herself led to the bad situation going on and on.
+ To reinforce that, the two sig positives are someone speaking for her, and the excellent results of finally standing up for herself. In the first the Queen stopped believing lies, and in the second she was allowed to choose where she wanted to live. LESSON LEARNED.
+ Timi will be a lot less afraid to speak her mind, and while forcing the issue was a brutal way to tackle it, the '4 x fear of memories' effect from her heartgame is about 75% repaired. She will still be fidgety and balky about it, but it won't paralyze her anymore.
+ She is now aware that ... well, there are very few gaps in her memory left! So she'll probably be a little more low-key and sad, now, because she's facing up to the possibility that she might go home soon.
[MEMORY # 15]
Aug. 9th, 2011 08:59 amBlackmail by Carving Knife. Dipping in flour and soot to replace the stone eagle. (significant negative, shareable)
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+ Plus 500 depression points--except these will mostly be negated because she has memories of this situation being more or less resolved. Jon Dumpling was okay, etc. etc.
+ After taking this memory, Timi will have a much smaller capacity for emotional blackmail! She will take a good deal of physical pain over it. Which...will change her attitude during bad games.
+ This memory is also important because she reacts with hatred to something, rather than just fear and cowardice! Hate is pretty foreign to her in canon before then, and Aather!Timi hasn't hated before. O...oops she accidentally darker emotions.
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+ Plus 500 depression points--except these will mostly be negated because she has memories of this situation being more or less resolved. Jon Dumpling was okay, etc. etc.
+ After taking this memory, Timi will have a much smaller capacity for emotional blackmail! She will take a good deal of physical pain over it. Which...will change her attitude during bad games.
+ This memory is also important because she reacts with hatred to something, rather than just fear and cowardice! Hate is pretty foreign to her in canon before then, and Aather!Timi hasn't hated before. O...oops she accidentally darker emotions.
[MEMORY # 14]
Aug. 1st, 2011 11:48 pm* Jon's failed attempts to teach her to fly. (trivial negative)
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+ Bawww Jon so good to me ;o;
+ Just a extra heaping dose of 'wrugh' about her useless wings.
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+ Bawww Jon so good to me ;o;
+ Just a extra heaping dose of 'wrugh' about her useless wings.
[MEMORY # 13]
Jul. 30th, 2011 05:05 pm* Jon's silver chain; talking about China. (trivial positive)
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+ Pretty decent memory! Talking about information that she's mostly already aware of through previous memories, actually. But there is never any harm in more memories of chilling out with Jon.
+ A lot of sick unhappiness around the 'yeah I still can't fly' part, though.
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+ Pretty decent memory! Talking about information that she's mostly already aware of through previous memories, actually. But there is never any harm in more memories of chilling out with Jon.
+ A lot of sick unhappiness around the 'yeah I still can't fly' part, though.
[MEMORY # 12]
Jul. 27th, 2011 10:30 pm* Defying the Black Grandfather to stay with Jon. (significant neutral)
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+ HELLO THERE BLACK GRANDFATHER!
+ PLUS FIVE THOUSAND PUNCH OF COURAGE AND COPING AND NOT RUNNING AWAY FROM HER PROBLEMS!!!
+ The statement that she finally can fly is blurred out of this memory.
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+ HELLO THERE BLACK GRANDFATHER!
+ PLUS FIVE THOUSAND PUNCH OF COURAGE AND COPING AND NOT RUNNING AWAY FROM HER PROBLEMS!!!
+ The statement that she finally can fly is blurred out of this memory.
[MEMORY # 11]
Jul. 24th, 2011 02:52 pm* The smell of new bread. "Good afternoon, Dragon." (significant neutral, shareable)
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+ Pretty mixed! On the one hand, a new memory of Jonathan's kindness is good for reinforcing her; on the other, she now knows why she was abandoned--her fear of flying--and that kind of ties in to her uselessness issues.
+ What with the team thing going on right now, she may well binge her three untaken memories all at once, flee the cabin, and then hole up in/near the library for a couple of days. Too many sads!!
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+ Pretty mixed! On the one hand, a new memory of Jonathan's kindness is good for reinforcing her; on the other, she now knows why she was abandoned--her fear of flying--and that kind of ties in to her uselessness issues.
+ What with the team thing going on right now, she may well binge her three untaken memories all at once, flee the cabin, and then hole up in/near the library for a couple of days. Too many sads!!
[MEMORIES # 9 & 10 / SKILL # 3]
Jul. 14th, 2011 08:06 am* “Tell me, Timi—to whom do you belong?” (significant negative, shareable)
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+ This is literally the most conflicted moment of Timi's life. FEELINGS!
+ She might hide in a tree for a while after this one.
+ When she gets over it a little bit she'll realize that Jon Dumpling is alive and okay!
+ Queens are people too. Even less regard for fancy titles than she had before.
+ She knows her real name! She might stick to being 'Lark' in Aather, though, since it has much more positive meaning than 'Timi.'
* The Queen's cup. (trivial neutral)
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+ WHOOPS THIS MEMORY BRINGS BACK HER FEAR OF FLYING.
+ And knowing why her wings are useless.
+ It's maybe the easiest way to get that back, though--a quiet acknowledgement of the issue instead of the bad memory of what triggered it in the first place. She probably won't talk about it! But attempts to get her to use her wings properly will be even more useless than before, and she's certainly not going to try jumping off high places to make them work like she did before.
* Reading
...is reading! Totally issue-free! Yaaaay.
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+ This is literally the most conflicted moment of Timi's life. FEELINGS!
+ She might hide in a tree for a while after this one.
+ When she gets over it a little bit she'll realize that Jon Dumpling is alive and okay!
+ Queens are people too. Even less regard for fancy titles than she had before.
+ She knows her real name! She might stick to being 'Lark' in Aather, though, since it has much more positive meaning than 'Timi.'
* The Queen's cup. (trivial neutral)
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+ WHOOPS THIS MEMORY BRINGS BACK HER FEAR OF FLYING.
+ And knowing why her wings are useless.
+ It's maybe the easiest way to get that back, though--a quiet acknowledgement of the issue instead of the bad memory of what triggered it in the first place. She probably won't talk about it! But attempts to get her to use her wings properly will be even more useless than before, and she's certainly not going to try jumping off high places to make them work like she did before.
* Reading
...is reading! Totally issue-free! Yaaaay.
[MEMORY # 8]
May. 23rd, 2011 09:26 pm* Spending winter with Jon, learning to help him out. (significant positive)
No excerpt! This is a between-the-lines montage of quiet, pleasant memory--a couple of months learning to clean and cook and bake and help and settle into a household and feel like she was useful and belonged somewhere! Possibly the longest sustained period of being happy that she has in her registry.
+ Makes her a ton less depressed, so she won't try to run away from her team and games altogether (which she was on the verge of doing before this game olol :'D)
+ Settles her comfortably into a caretaker role for Tiger's Eye.
+ She is still worried about Jon, and still dislikes crowds immensely, but she will be better able to deal as long as Tiger's Eye is there and there aren't any HUGE UPHEAVALS! for the next little while.
No excerpt! This is a between-the-lines montage of quiet, pleasant memory--a couple of months learning to clean and cook and bake and help and settle into a household and feel like she was useful and belonged somewhere! Possibly the longest sustained period of being happy that she has in her registry.
+ Makes her a ton less depressed, so she won't try to run away from her team and games altogether (which she was on the verge of doing before this game olol :'D)
+ Settles her comfortably into a caretaker role for Tiger's Eye.
+ She is still worried about Jon, and still dislikes crowds immensely, but she will be better able to deal as long as Tiger's Eye is there and there aren't any HUGE UPHEAVALS! for the next little while.
[MEMORY # 7]
May. 18th, 2011 10:38 pm* Living alone in the Griffin nest for several days. (trivial negative)
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+ SOOOO LONELYYYYYY AND SADDDDD
+ On a practical note, now knows her natural diet—grass and moss—so if teams are ever short on food she can eat those and leave the rest of Tiger's Eye her share.
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+ SOOOO LONELYYYYYY AND SADDDDD
+ On a practical note, now knows her natural diet—grass and moss—so if teams are ever short on food she can eat those and leave the rest of Tiger's Eye her share.
[MEMORY # 6]
May. 11th, 2011 10:50 pm* The Emperor awarding her the emerald button. (significant neutral)
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+ This memory is pretty heavy! It's a blurry haze of FFFFFEEEEEEEELINGSSSSS and hits her hard--she was exhausted and confused and completely unhappy and sort of clinging to hope here re: the Dragon helping her out--and she doesn't have all the context for it.
+ She will not want to talk about it.
+ She will try to find an alternative way to wear her Tiger's Eye key because the collar now feels constricting. But the key itself will have an added layer of symbolism for her.
+ Large crowds now give her bad feelings. SUCKS TO BE TIMI IN A GAME MINGLE!
+ She is generally going to hide under beds and try to be alone more for a while.
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+ This memory is pretty heavy! It's a blurry haze of FFFFFEEEEEEEELINGSSSSS and hits her hard--she was exhausted and confused and completely unhappy and sort of clinging to hope here re: the Dragon helping her out--and she doesn't have all the context for it.
+ She will not want to talk about it.
+ She will try to find an alternative way to wear her Tiger's Eye key because the collar now feels constricting. But the key itself will have an added layer of symbolism for her.
+ Large crowds now give her bad feelings. SUCKS TO BE TIMI IN A GAME MINGLE!
+ She is generally going to hide under beds and try to be alone more for a while.
[MEMORY # 5]
May. 7th, 2011 09:36 pm* First taste of snow. (trivial neutral)
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+ This is what prompted her to search for the village!
+ Cooooold and aloooone feelings. A lot more loneliness than active fear and unhappiness.
+ Increased dislike of snow, on top of the phobia she already started out with.
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+ This is what prompted her to search for the village!
+ Cooooold and aloooone feelings. A lot more loneliness than active fear and unhappiness.
+ Increased dislike of snow, on top of the phobia she already started out with.
[MEMORY # 4]
Apr. 21st, 2011 01:59 pmChristmas with Jon! (trivial positive)
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+ Learned: holidays, baking!
+ Timi loev baking! She doesn't have the skills or the resources for it right now, but when she does and everyone else is sad there will be baking therapy.
+ Humans at home aren't used to Griffins...?
+ This memory makes her a bit more assertive! Which she needs after her previous one, really.
+ Dereeeee.
+ And some homesickness. Joooon. ;o; What happened to you?
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+ Learned: holidays, baking!
+ Timi loev baking! She doesn't have the skills or the resources for it right now, but when she does and everyone else is sad there will be baking therapy.
+ Humans at home aren't used to Griffins...?
+ This memory makes her a bit more assertive! Which she needs after her previous one, really.
+ Dereeeee.
+ And some homesickness. Joooon. ;o; What happened to you?